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There some things I've learned in this world after you made me feel this way
How when a heart being broken, it doesn't make any sound
How when I'm missing someone the only noise I can hear is the ticks from the clock
Senses every second like a time in hell
How I could unconsciously produce droplets of tears
And I wonder why I still not dehydrated, because I know it's still running down my cheek
Sometimes how I am able looking up to a nothingness
Thinking about nothing
Contemplating about emptiness
How I experienced a minute that feels like forever
And people say the flame in my eyes gradually fades
How you make me dead inside
Because I cannot understand everything that you're saying
How my heart puts trick on my mind
It's always unfair for me whenever I contemplate things about you
How I always wrong
and how you always right
How I know you're a mean person,
Playing with my heart like it's just a deck of cards
Giving me an illusion of future, when you're already know it's not happening
but how funny that I still care about you a lot
There's no other word that could describe how hurt I've felt
How much pain I've been going through
How much I went
Just to be with you, just for that momentousness
And it really breaks me to know the truth
Because no matter how much I ran, how much I sacrificed
No matter how much obstacles I managed to work out
and no matter how much puzzles I successfully decoded
You will always come up with new ones
New enigmas that push me harder and farther
And when I thought I catch a glimpse of my finish line
When I thought it's all going to be just fine, because I think I deserve you as my reward
There, you gave me the last paradox
The ultimate one
Because it's about a thing that I cannot change
That from the first place you already know what it is
But you keep it away from me
Save it as your last weapon
The final reason to make you not to be mine
After making a fool of me until this far
It jolted me to perceive how sadistic you could be
Oh my, you're such a dead for me
But now I'm done
This journey found its end
How when a heart being broken, it doesn't make any sound
How when I'm missing someone the only noise I can hear is the ticks from the clock
Senses every second like a time in hell
How I could unconsciously produce droplets of tears
And I wonder why I still not dehydrated, because I know it's still running down my cheek
Sometimes how I am able looking up to a nothingness
Thinking about nothing
Contemplating about emptiness
How I experienced a minute that feels like forever
And people say the flame in my eyes gradually fades
How you make me dead inside
Because I cannot understand everything that you're saying
How my heart puts trick on my mind
It's always unfair for me whenever I contemplate things about you
How I always wrong
and how you always right
How I know you're a mean person,
Playing with my heart like it's just a deck of cards
Giving me an illusion of future, when you're already know it's not happening
but how funny that I still care about you a lot
There's no other word that could describe how hurt I've felt
How much pain I've been going through
How much I went
Just to be with you, just for that momentousness
And it really breaks me to know the truth
Because no matter how much I ran, how much I sacrificed
No matter how much obstacles I managed to work out
and no matter how much puzzles I successfully decoded
You will always come up with new ones
New enigmas that push me harder and farther
And when I thought I catch a glimpse of my finish line
When I thought it's all going to be just fine, because I think I deserve you as my reward
There, you gave me the last paradox
The ultimate one
Because it's about a thing that I cannot change
That from the first place you already know what it is
But you keep it away from me
Save it as your last weapon
The final reason to make you not to be mine
After making a fool of me until this far
It jolted me to perceive how sadistic you could be
Oh my, you're such a dead for me
But now I'm done
This journey found its end
