I wish I was everything
Knowing you either curse or bless
I'm so tired of this
Giving you up
Or fight till I rest
Cause maybe everything we had means nothing to you
What I am is just another phase
I don't want to live in regret
But I can't live in wait
Maybe our time is over
My chances are gone
Leaving me by crying in darkest place
Everywhere but not near you
I'm just another mistake you made
But thank you to make me realize
There's something bigger than life

Cause you need one, to be complete..
we were born as imperfect
and nothing is perfect in this world
until you find the other half
take you to another different level
a whole new dimension
flawless when everything is falling
but I'm invincible promptly
sharing thoughts and feelings
through eyes and words
and time's suddenly stop

it's just
a perfection

am I left alone in this world
left to wonder and cry
over things that passing me by everyday

see other laughter people have
see other happiness i've never tasted

i just wanna feel a little bit of it
a single droplet of heaven
to make me know what it feels like to be loved
or to be cared about
cause i don't even know what i'm feeling right now
all i could see is darkness
a shade of gloom
maybe this twilight existed only for me
craving for a tiny glimmer
just a bit of it
please wake me up from this nightmare
i don't want to lose my self
don't want to be another lost soul
corrupted spirit
unconscious for eternity
i want to be somebody for at least anybody

I don't want this to be over
I don't want lose you from the picture

cause when they say time helps you to forget
I don't want it to happen

some places may be forgotten
some events may be unremembered

but not a tiny part of yours i want to blank out
no matter it's a truth hurts
or happy thoughts

flower blossoms because of you
sun rises and brighten me above the horizon
little touch of yours makes me shudder

can't you see how much i miss you?
don't u see i'm losing you?
won't u want us to share time together again?

i'm vulnerable without you
though i don't want it to be one sided
if you don't want me then I'm helpless
i could only wish you stay in ecstasy state

whether with me or not
in spite it splits me to half
cause you're the other part
I'm losing, I'm missing
I'm loving

the one I'll never get back

In the middle of the road
where dust meets wind
when rain releases its love to earth
kisses the asphalt, teases the pebbles, and seduces the soil

I want you today as much as I want you ten years a go
Nothing hasn't changed
My love still the same
It's even growing stronger, you know if it's possible

I wait for certain moment
Saying how hard I fall for you again
Not even missing a beat of my heart
Sending jolt through my vein
Making me happy and sad all the same time

But I also scared
Terrified your love would change and would not be the same
Cause what life could be if I don't have you in my life
Nothing more than just words that formed into sentences
Sentences molded into paragraphs
Casted into chapters
and framed them into book
a meaningless book of my life

My autobiography has you written all over the pages
everybody knows It's achromatic piece before you came
thanks to you, now I'm not colorblind

hundreds of time i'm trying to regain composure
to once again learn loving you, once again studying your perfect figure intently
but it hurts way too much, my only heart which you've broken still won't heal
I gathered the pieces that has shattered into million particles
But there's still some portion missing and cannot be replaced

I don't know when i'll be able to look someone the same order with the way i was looking at you
those beautiful eyes, the intriguing orbs, dragging me, pulling me into a whole new dimension
call me crazy if you like
but right now, loving you feels the same as losing you
every time i try to hold you tight, u always shove me in your scheme
though maybe you've never meant to do those things

but I almost forgot, since when is the time when whatever you do always wrong in my eyes


it's a pain that never goes
a torture that never leaves
disseminates me like pieces of trash

I need those tender loving touch
I need the sweetness, weakness, darkness
Sing me a song before saying goodbye
Whether it's forever or just a moment

Hear you saying you love me
Makes me tremble a little bit
I know it's understatement
But please don't hate me
Cause I don't want other people feel the same like I do
towards you my only love

How pure we are
How beautiful us
How ravishing we have
An enchanting relationship men ever knew

I'm blessed by you
There's no single day I miss without saying prayer
About how we are perfectly fit together

You glued me when I was broken
Put me back the way I am
Amplify me to be a better being

I know it's not a dream
among all those things I've experienced
This is the most palpable one
Only thing I'm sure of